Everything is Terrible

Past two week's been rough. Lately I have felt extremely left out from my uni's friend group, and it turns out there has been an ongoing beef between them–hence the split. Now, me the clueless, was just following along–but at some point it felt like I was a ghost in the back of the group. I call their names out and I'm left doubting if I just wasn't loud enough. At one point I stayed behind to see if they'd turn around, and they didn't even look back.

It's led me to questioning my life, like damn, am I really that boring?? Am I too loud, too quiet, not funny enough, not getting the stupid pop culture references? I don't know. I just wanted to hang out, throw a quip or two, sit back and chill. And it's like–I know the self-doubts aren't true because I've had fantastic friends both online and in real life and I am certainly not the meek one. I'm just really confused.

Because of this whole fiasco, I've been extremely demotivated because I messaged in the group project GC and it's been 4 days and no one has replied. Oh well, I guess I'm coding this entire thing by myself. Which should've been fine except when my brain's a funk; suddenly everything's a Herculean task and I can't accomplish anything. It doesn't help that I have some missing requirements and oh my god everything's due this week. So I definitely shouldn't be updating right now, and doing other productive things but I needed to let this one out. I'm sorry for the vent I'm not this lame I promise.

Anyhow, terrible month aside, I've been recently watching JJBA with my partner! We're at part 3 already–I'm still really biased with Joseph and Part 2 but the whole Stands deal has been an extremely interesting thing to watch. The idea of an evil spirit turning into your Pokemon is freaking metal. Other than that, I'm gearing my hands for Artfight in July, though I'm not sure I can put out the same insane amount of works like last year. I do want to test a certain rendering style, but I'll see how long I last until I grew sick and tired of it haha.

That's all for now. I added CSS, btw; it's not that great as of the moment as I forgot 90% of how this works, but we'll get there, chat. We'll get there.